1st Day

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This ungrateful, unthankful, unjoyful, life.
How do you beat it?
How do you fight it?
How do you overcome it?

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She gave me this book, One Thousand Gifts.

Earlier that Sunday morning in church, when I had been walking by, she softly asked me,

“What’s wrong?”

It was only a minute before I felt tears and knew I was crying.
How do you tell someone what’s wrong when everything is wrong?
How do you tell someone why you’re crying when you’re crying for everything?

That night was the night she brought the book to church with her, One Thousand Gifts, and gave it to me.

I started it that night when I got home, and I was done with it by Tuesday night.
She could not have given that book to me at a more perfect time.

That book was a such a mighty blessing and encouragement to me.

This being grateful always, this giving thanks to the LORD, always, this joy always, and this living fully, not wasting time, but staying awake to now, and holding out our hands open wide for HIS will and living every minute of it, I want these.
And these things have been on my heart.

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Especially when the inside is asking, how do you really live this in the middle of the mess?

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Shortly before she had given me One Thousand Gifts, I had this idea.
It had been poking me, again and again, and I thought “Why not?”
Why not take the month of November, and every day focus on thanking and praising the LORD, and make a list of things that I was thankful for……..or the things that I was putting forth the effort to be more thankful for because I knew I needed to be thankful for everything.

A thankful list of every day.
Every day in November.
The blessings and gifts that were special to me each day, and even some hard things that I didn’t understand, or that hurt, but that I was putting forth effort to be thankful for anyway.

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After reading One Thousand Gifts I was really encouraged in my own struggle for finding and choosing a thankful, joyful, life, and I didn’t feel so silly about doing a November list.
Maybe in trying to find, maybe in practicing this at first just like a little child that’s learning to read or walk, maybe after it feeling akward, foolish, or unnatural at first, maybe it will be the beginning of it becoming natural, of actually cultivating, finding, choosing, having, a heart of thankfulness.
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November 1st –

1. Raindrops all over everything
2. Rainy cloudy days
3. Turtle sundaes
4. And friends to share turtle sundaes with
5. The kids
6. An unorganized room
7. Notes floating off harp strings
8. Quiet
9. Time to write
10. Fear and failure that directs and drives to the LORD

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2 thoughts on “1st Day

  1. Oh Emily, my heart both aches and rejoices in this post. Welcome to the journey of “thanksgiving” — and I believe you’re right — we need practice (like children) to get it right.
    I especially like the “negative” things you found to be thankful for. My very first entry in my 1,000 gifts journal was “Hot Baths for aching muscles” — finding the good in the midst of pain is a challenge but also rewarding. I think it changes our perspective/attitudes when we purposefully LOOK for something to be thankful for in the hard stuff.
    BTW – Turtle sundaes with very dear friends are the BEST!

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